Wednesday, September 23, 2015
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Salam Eid Ul Adha everyone. I decided today rather than writing extremely stupid, depressing things like i've been doing lately, I should write about my life. If it actually interests anyone. (Ceh, as if I was ever being interesting before this)
My Trials was okay la I guess. I'm pretty happy with my results as I've improved a lot from Mid Term. It went from 2As 1B 3Cs to 4As 2Bs. Not that bad, don't you think? However I'm truly scared for the real exams. Don't get me wrong though, I have this belief that my results were out of pure luck; I'm struggling for every subject actually. I didnt target a single A for Trials at first, I doubt I would I will ever get straight As for the real deal papers. But I'm trying as much as everyone is, I believe I can if i put up the right effort. 17 days left Syasya, 17 days left.
Mencari keberkatan yang secukupnya dalam 17 hari tu memang susah. Tolak dosa lagi, melagha lagi. (I really think I should study instead of writing this post). Bila orang kata "Nothing is impossible", he/she really means nothing is impossible. As in a straight A student can drop so hard down low without even expecting it and the worst achiever in the batch can be in the top 10. You should never judge a person by his past. You should never judge a person at all.
If anyone is reading this, if you don't even have a single A in your past exams, if you think you didn't score well, if you're not satisfied with what you have gotten, then don't give up. Make use of the remaining time efficiently. Doa banyak banyak kat tuhan, dengar cakap your parents, berkat tuhan terletak kat berkat and restu parents. So screw the facts that pukul 4 tak bagus belajar pukul 6 tak bagus belajar. If your parents suruh belajar eventhough it's not a good time to do so, belajar je. In the mean time, your parents suruh tinggalkan ni, tinggalkan tu, then leave it. Your parents kasi workbooks? make sure siapkan. Insyaallah berkat tu ada. Baca al-quran lebih lebih, doa lebih lebih, love what you learn, study, zikir, selawat. Put yourself first before others. Trust me, it helped my 3Cs to become at least 1A and 2Bs. Not an excellent result, but an ok improvement what. Never lose hope.
I want those 10As so bad. Like really really bad. It doesn't really affect my future much, sure. But I want to prove something to people. I want to repay whatever my parents have sacrificed for me to study here conveniently. Grades do measure intelligence (not to degrade bad scorers but wake up guys this is not the time to feel comfortable with what you achieved, there's two types of intelligence, practical and analytical, practical is how well you solve daily,common problems in life, analytical is how much skill, knowledge and ability you have to encounter better living for you and the world, your grades measure analytical intelligence) but sometimes grades don't really measure the effort you put up. We all know this one kid who's lazy as hell but scores well in every paper like wtf you use black magic thailand ke pe.
if you and your friend are talking about examination results and you have a distinctively better mark/grade from your friend, may i advise you, never say your results were bad in front of them. Eventhough they don't and won't show it, it downgrades them even more. They would kill to have your grades while it is as if you're not even grateful for what you have achieved. Bad grades doesn't just stop there just like that. You'll never know how much he or she had to pay the price of it. Absurd remarks, scolds, comparisons, disappointment. Trust me, I learnt my lesson. And I've been there too.
Everytime I reflect back whatever my parents did for me just because of my studies, i feel a stronger urge to get a better result. I still feel like I'm not enough (lol obviously). Gila ke pe taknak straight As, Umi Abah dah hantar kau beratus beratus kilometer jauh dari rumah suruh belajar, everyday risau anak sebab jauh, everytime balik keluarkan beratus ratus ringgit naik flight, kalau parents hantar or datang minyak beratus ratus ringgit, energy diorang lagi, time diorang lagi, food and barang barang pun dah beratus ratus ringgit every month, duit belanja lagi, everytime solat fardhu solat sunat baca yassin semua sebut nama kau, belum kira barang barang yang kau nak yang tak perlu sangat, just for their daughter to end up not getting what they expected? Ha ha. Get Up, Sya, Get Up. At least do it for them.
God, I'm too young to be dealing with the sick reality, I dont wanna grow up anymore. (but in the same time I also don't wanna be stuck here at school which really sucks, more than growing up is)
9:21 PM
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With SPM coming up, Syasya decides to write her journey to the biggest determiner of her life. (notice the brackets in her post counting down the days to the start of it) Turning 17 two days before Bahasa Melayu Paper 1, Syasya is an ambitious girl no taller than 5 foot 3, but with dreams higher than the sky. She spends her free time reading, sleeping, writing and lepaking. Syasya's a little bit weird sometimes, but, well, she likes to be different.
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