Wednesday, November 25, 2015
Diary: July Pt. 1
2nd July 2015
Daily Reminder
1. Being grumpy will never solve anything. Have patience. Have lots of them.
2. You lost people, not yourself. If you think you did, go and find yourself.
3. Syasya, you deserve to be happy.
4. You've got strength, go and show it to the world.
5. Take deep breaths.
6. He listens. He understands. He knows what's best for you. Don't forget Him, and He will never forget you.
3rd July 2015
Vulnerable
Oh grow up, Sya.
You're too fragile to face the world like this. Some say it's peer pressure, seeing people so called up with someone special. Seeing your friends giving distinctive attention to the people/person they love. I want that attention too. I want to be loved back too. I want to be cared by the people I care about too. I don't wanna be left hurt and worthless. Some people say it's a waste of time. Toeng is a waste of time. Boys are a waste of time. Ala, as if any more time can be benefited by having none of those things. wala0.
but what about the time spent on overthinking. what about the time spent on your uncontrollable emotions. what difference does it make on those situations. They say that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Well, yeah, but "stronger" doesn't mean you're not hurting. You're still bearing the pain which is not really disappearing anytime sooner. The battlescars carved by a little knife that would not really heal yet, let alone fade. Those scars are plastered with happiness you currently possess, and the laughter you share. Let's just hope we won't run out of bandaids.
But well still, it's called battlescars for a reason. You've battled. You've fought. You've got strength. All that's left is for you to show it.
Move along, Sya.
5th July 2015
Wan Nur Syasya Aqilah Binti Wan Asmuri,
- Nawaitu lillahitaala, buat kerana Allah SWT. Niat mesti ada
- Jangan tinggal solat !!!! Jaga solat fardhu. Solat awal waktu. Biar Khusyuk.
- Baca al-quran. No exceptions. Lagi bagus kalau hafaz.
- Solat Sunat! Solat dhuha, tahajjud and hajat especialy. Kalau rajin buat sekali solat sunat taubat.
- Sedekah. Help the ones in need, and Allah will help you.
- Cinta ilmu. Love what you do, love what you learn.
- Ingat Allah, selawat selalu.
- Have enough sleep and rest.
- USAHA ! biar penat asalkan dapat.
#RoadToSuccess #96DaysLeft
7th July 2015
Maybe I should learn to respect other's way of living more. Just as how I want people to respect mine. Different people come from different places with different parents and different backgrounds. Happiness will then develop from respect. Retaliation comes from fear, and limitations. Life is unfair, yes. But some people gets less justice than others. And some people just don't deserve their current position in life. Sometimes life is less unfair to some people. That's how it really, really is unjustified. Someday I'm gonna write a book about my thought when I am 15 or 14. Or maybe I should blog about them, and see how far it develops. Maybe to a real extend where people agree with me. Who Knows?
10th July 2015
Maybe I actually need someone. You know, someone who would call you up to get an update on how you're doing. Someone who would still notice you over a crowd of people. Someone who can freely make jokes no matter how stupid it is and can get or play along with yours. Someone who only flirts with you. Someone who you're really comfortable with for no reason. Someone who'd come up to you if you're all alone and be all "Hey Syasya what's up". Someone who can keep the conversation going and could still endure my most irrelevant stories. Someone who's there for every ups and downs. Someone who would stay up all night talking to you. Someone who would support you along the way. Someone who would always make you laugh. Someone who actually cared.
Well, maybe.
But I aint wanna go to whatever process I have gone through ever again sooo NAhhhhhh
11th July 2015
Everyone possesses the same set of emotions. Every reaction feels the same for everyone. The same feeling of happiness, the same feeling of anger, everything is just as similar. But it all depends on how you handle it. This is where it is distinctive. How you handle your anger, how happy you appear, the excitement you show.
Here's the thing, It's okay to feel, It's okay to emphasise whatever emotion you're feeling. Even the strongest, most respected figures in the world have diverse feelings.
So what's the point of being heartless. What's the point of being mean because you were too nice before. What's the point of not giving in. It was never on what you feel and what you do. It's all on how you handle it.
14th July 2015
Random Thoughts
1. I have realised that I have a boring life.
2. Well, manusia kot. Siapa kata sejuta kebaikan boleh dikaburkan dengan satu kejahatan je? Satu kebaikan pun boleh butakan sejuta kejahatan gak. Kau rasa kau dalam kalangan mana?
3. Kalau hati tak ikhlas nak mintak maaf atau memaafkan, tangan tu tak payah la nak salam.
4. Forgiving is a huge act. I like real, sincere forgivers. There must be a special place for them in heaven.
5. So you think you're different? Well I'm different too. And what makes you so special?
but what about the time spent on overthinking. what about the time spent on your uncontrollable emotions. what difference does it make on those situations. They say that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Well, yeah, but "stronger" doesn't mean you're not hurting. You're still bearing the pain which is not really disappearing anytime sooner. The battlescars carved by a little knife that would not really heal yet, let alone fade. Those scars are plastered with happiness you currently possess, and the laughter you share. Let's just hope we won't run out of bandaids.
But well still, it's called battlescars for a reason. You've battled. You've fought. You've got strength. All that's left is for you to show it.
Move along, Sya.
5th July 2015
Wan Nur Syasya Aqilah Binti Wan Asmuri,
- Nawaitu lillahitaala, buat kerana Allah SWT. Niat mesti ada
- Jangan tinggal solat !!!! Jaga solat fardhu. Solat awal waktu. Biar Khusyuk.
- Baca al-quran. No exceptions. Lagi bagus kalau hafaz.
- Solat Sunat! Solat dhuha, tahajjud and hajat especialy. Kalau rajin buat sekali solat sunat taubat.
- Sedekah. Help the ones in need, and Allah will help you.
- Cinta ilmu. Love what you do, love what you learn.
- Ingat Allah, selawat selalu.
- Have enough sleep and rest.
- USAHA ! biar penat asalkan dapat.
#RoadToSuccess #96DaysLeft
7th July 2015
Maybe I should learn to respect other's way of living more. Just as how I want people to respect mine. Different people come from different places with different parents and different backgrounds. Happiness will then develop from respect. Retaliation comes from fear, and limitations. Life is unfair, yes. But some people gets less justice than others. And some people just don't deserve their current position in life. Sometimes life is less unfair to some people. That's how it really, really is unjustified. Someday I'm gonna write a book about my thought when I am 15 or 14. Or maybe I should blog about them, and see how far it develops. Maybe to a real extend where people agree with me. Who Knows?
10th July 2015
Maybe I actually need someone. You know, someone who would call you up to get an update on how you're doing. Someone who would still notice you over a crowd of people. Someone who can freely make jokes no matter how stupid it is and can get or play along with yours. Someone who only flirts with you. Someone who you're really comfortable with for no reason. Someone who'd come up to you if you're all alone and be all "Hey Syasya what's up". Someone who can keep the conversation going and could still endure my most irrelevant stories. Someone who's there for every ups and downs. Someone who would stay up all night talking to you. Someone who would support you along the way. Someone who would always make you laugh. Someone who actually cared.
Well, maybe.
But I aint wanna go to whatever process I have gone through ever again sooo NAhhhhhh
11th July 2015
Everyone possesses the same set of emotions. Every reaction feels the same for everyone. The same feeling of happiness, the same feeling of anger, everything is just as similar. But it all depends on how you handle it. This is where it is distinctive. How you handle your anger, how happy you appear, the excitement you show.
Here's the thing, It's okay to feel, It's okay to emphasise whatever emotion you're feeling. Even the strongest, most respected figures in the world have diverse feelings.
So what's the point of being heartless. What's the point of being mean because you were too nice before. What's the point of not giving in. It was never on what you feel and what you do. It's all on how you handle it.
14th July 2015
Random Thoughts
1. I have realised that I have a boring life.
2. Well, manusia kot. Siapa kata sejuta kebaikan boleh dikaburkan dengan satu kejahatan je? Satu kebaikan pun boleh butakan sejuta kejahatan gak. Kau rasa kau dalam kalangan mana?
3. Kalau hati tak ikhlas nak mintak maaf atau memaafkan, tangan tu tak payah la nak salam.
4. Forgiving is a huge act. I like real, sincere forgivers. There must be a special place for them in heaven.
5. So you think you're different? Well I'm different too. And what makes you so special?
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